Maybe I should as well, since I need the practice with writing and all. I have a lot to say, since I’m in a relationship that no one knows about and they shouldn’t, at least while I still live with my parents. Don’t have a backup plan so maybe I should refrain from fucking up the living quarters, right? I don’t know where to start with this life of mines.
The guy i like gave me a dumbfounded look today, whereas the guy who is semi-attractive( to me anyways) waves when he sees me and comes over to me and starts out with “i hear it’s your birthday..”. But he just lets me talk. i’m always asking him questions about his life. Damn psych majors.
Maybe i was showing too much boob today. Sorry world, there’s not too many ways to hide ‘em.
Anyways, today i didn’t feel old. I just felt elated that I am alive and breathing. That’s always nice. I don’t expect much from birthdays. I just want to be appreciated.
i don’t know what the hell i’m doing with it, I just know i’m living it.
I sabotage my own success every minute I don’t fill out an internship application, turn in my financial aid papers, ask about my housing for the fall, and decide to sleep or watch TV instead. Can’t I just be tired of being in school? Cause honestly I am. I’m tired of waking up to go to class and study stuff I could care less about for a degree that does not guarantee me a job. My family says that its weak of me to even not care about school or want to get an education and that I do not want to end up working in a fast food restaurant.
I didn’t know how to explain myself. All I can say is that I barely understand myself. I want to do well, but I have no motivation to wake up and face anything related to this university I’m still attending.
I’m not a weed smoker, but in an alternate universe, i think i would be. And i’d write bomb ass poetry. lol
I look in the mirror and i try to answer the million-dollar question of what’s wrong with me. Why am I acting this way? Why do I turn people away?
I need a big, comfortable lounge chair to sit in and just think. After basically failing all of my classes this semester and not being able to walk in graduation (and my mom spending 100+ on graduation announcements), my dean suggested i talk to a counselor. I scheduled a “meet and greet” type of appointment first. I didn’t show. they didn’t call me back, so oh well. But i feel like i need to open up to someone. I’m not saying it has to be a therapist, but just someone. my own family and friends won’t understand why i basically didn’t do my work or skipped class to the point of failing. How I just didn’t do papers for classes, or how I never did any work for my online class. I don’t remember reading a textbook for a class the whole semester. This summer class is the most work I’ve done all year. Now, i have an internship to get that i haven’t really searched for. I just want to know why I do this to myself. It’s more than just procrastination.
And now for something completely different:
Dear White People (movie trailer)
DEAR WHITE PEOPLE
A satire about being a Black face in a white place. DEAR WHITE PEOPLE follows the stories of four black students at an Ivy League college where a riot breaks out over a popular “African American” themed party thrown by white students. With tongue planted firmly in cheek, the film will explore racial identity in “post-racial” America while weaving a universal story of forging one’s unique path in the world.Click here to help bring this film to theaters: http://bit.ly/DWPYoTu
Remember when Black movies didn’t necessarily star a dude in a fat suit and a wig? Or have major plot twists timed to Gospel numbers for no apparent reason? No? Damn…
Well believe it or not there was a time when “Black Art-House” was a thing. When movies like Do The Right Thing, Hollywood Shuffle, and Boyz N The Hood were breaking box office records as well as making us laugh, cry, and think in ways movies hadn’t before.
The humble producers of DEAR WHITE PEOPLE, a satire about being a black face in a white place, long to bring those days back. But we can’t do it without you!
We pieced together what resources we had to make this trailer in order to entice investors for our planned million dollar feature. Armed with this trailer and your support we plan to make this film a reality. Click here to help bring this film to theaters: http://bit.ly/DWPYoTu
I want to see this.
Wow. That’s a damned good trailer. I want to see this movie. I want to see this movie in a theater. They haven’t made a movie like this in a long, long, long, long, long time.
To put things in perspective and make you feel old, School Daze came out 24 years ago.
Help this movie exist, we need it.
SO GLAD!!!!!!I watched this trailer!! Seriously, this needs to be in movie theatres… like.. yesterday. Signal boooooooost! Help this movie how you can people!!